Oh, the antics of the young...

I'm shaking my head with an abashed smile on my face and that "what can we do?" expression.
Seriously, some of the things I get myself into...
I have signed up online at 2 different sites which will let me help people plagiarize my writing and pretend it is theirs by handing me a wad of cash for my cooperation. Ah college, such a gold mine.

So I'm sitting here, waiting for my laundry to be done. My driving instructor has forgotten about me =( All for the best, I guess. it might be a divine sign.

While I was loading my laundry, I thought of an interesting post.

Why I'm Staying Single
1- Laundry
Now, those of you who know me know that I am a horribly lazy and undisciplined person. A boyfriend distracts me even further from the pile of ever growing dirty laundry in my room, screaming to be cared for. After a month, yes, a month, I am doing my laundry. Life is distracting and full enough of procrastinations already, go away.
2- I Get Fat(ter)
Before you get annoyed at me for my use of the word 'fat', I am using it lightly. 'Chubby' doesnt have the same ring. Due to my laziness, I have a tendency to skip meals or to just eat simple things like bread and honey stars *eyes honey stars in the container next to the computer*
Okay, I'm back. My stomach was growling so I just HAD to have some. Where was I? Oh. Okay. So what happens when there is this guy always asking me out to dinners and lunches or  just dropping by only to be bullied by me to bring me to those delectable curry puffs I love so much, the mouth watering fried chicken I so desire or those savory yet crispy chocolate pastries I adore~ All that bak kut teh, Western food, fast food and Italian food~ I didnt mention Japanese food because it is generally pretty healthy.
3- Money, Money, Money
Dating = dates. Since I have never been the type to let a guy pay for everything for me, it means more 'money out' =( I spend enough on books and my usual weird stuff as it is. Also, guys have a tendency to bring me to 1 Utama and KLCC (okay, its cuz I like it there) and we know the stuff there ain't cheap.
Plus, all the smsing and phone calls.
4- Little Sister, Big Tantrum
She gets grumpy and pissy when I'm out a lot.
5- Kick-wha?
Dating makes me more docile. I am so not as kick ass and that is just sad. Plus, all the mushy stuff and the love songs make me gooey and hence, less kick ass.
6- Serena's dating who?
I get really behind on my TV shows though it is a happy goldmine when I get my alone time to update myself on 'all the latest gossip and I know I love her XOXO' and fill myself with Glee only to still NOT discover who is the mother of those stupid kids on that stupid sofa. A person should always keep up to date with their favorite series =(

I'm hungry now. So thats all for my list. Hope it was amusing enough =p

The Smell Of Your Perfume~

HELLO!!!!
It is a cold Thursday here in my bedroom where at 8:55am, I am still in my pajamas. Well, actually, my pajamas are usually just really comfy day clothes so... I am still in the clothes I wore to sleep.
Yes, unnecessary, I know.

I would like a club sandwich =( Those things are delicious~ (The one I eat regularly is at Coffee Bean BTW)
Yum~ Turkey ham with cheese and egg with a little bit of pepper~ *shivers*

Ok, yes, I'm hungry.

So Ridz is leaving today. Boo. I will miss him despite all our bickering and mindf***ing each other all the time. I dont know why he couldnt have gone back on the 26th like all the other people. Dumb ass.
It's been nice hanging out with you, Ridz, see you probably never =_="\

 I wonder how you guys title your posts. More often than not, my titles have very little to do with my post and mostly to do with what's going through my head. Which is odd. Since the post is supposed to contain things going through my head. Huh.

I forgot to start my iTunes.
Oh, I just remembered something I can talk about! My BBQ!

Taken by one of the guys

My really huge family 

Gosh, that was awesome. Fortunately there was enough food though Darren said there wasnt enough satay.
Sadly, a bunch of them couldnt make it because of
-exams
-assignments
-family stuff
-its Klang. . . . .


Ridz came first to help me set up then Joshua came at 6 so we started bbq-ing some chicken for ourselves~
Eventually, Ridz left to get Jeff and Ran and people very slowly tricked in. The first to arrive after that was Alex, Keith and Kok Hou. Then Ridz, Jeff, Ran came.
The look on the guys faces were ._.
"Sam, are there ANY girls coming?"
So there I was going "REALLY!!! There are!! Really! Tell them Joshua!"
Then Christina and Sherwyn came and proved it. Take that. LoL
At one point, before the girls arrived, I was looking out of the gate and the guy were talking then all of a sudden, Ridz shouted from the BBQ pit, "I DID SAM! I DID SAM!"
I turned around with my WTF face on but it turns out they were talking about South Australian Matriculation but I'm on to you, Ridz. I know you did that deliberately eventhough you really DID do SAM =_="
Best part: My dad was in earshot. Boom.

Other mishaps include me totally forgetting about plates and cups though sis Kim came to my rescue with cups and Foong arrived with plates in hand but neh, I know you guys had fun eating chicken like barbarians.
I am going to invite Randall and Jeff to every one of my BBQs from now on. Those guys know how to bbq yo.
Anyways, it was awesome and it was nice to see my subang family bonding with my klang family.

 

 

Big Brother, Alex

Sam: This is Alex, my 'big brother'
JQ: Eh, you guys even look alike!!

Me, Ridz and JQ

Ridz is a total photo crasher.

We girls look tiny.

Sis Kim and Bawanie

I love this picture, its like "Say wha-?"

Jeff, Sherwen and Christina

Aisha: Ewwwwwwww

Kok Hou: No one likes me =(

 Actually, Kok Hou practically dominated the girls, one at a time

Really sweet pic

Sam's BBQ a.k.a. photo shoot 

Sam: Aisha, move! We're creating a scandal!

=)

Dint I, Dint I, Dint I See You Cryinnn

This is a song that has been stuck in my head for weeks since I watched 'John Tucker Must Die'. I finally grew frustrated with knowing only two lines of the song and decided to google it.
As simple of a song it is, it is actually pretty nice and singable.

Wow, this is the fifth year my blog is up. Thinking back to the things that happened in 2007, it really makes me feel ._.
I have to go soon to pick up my sister...

You know, life gets really hard sometimes but there's always a reason to smile. Last night, after I typed out that post, I went for cell and ended up in stitches. Not literally. I just mean I laughed so much.
So things dont end the way I want them to and relationships dont go the direction I hope they would, situations dont magically resolve themselves and decisions are hard to make especially when they are monumental.
Last night, Su Ling read a passage from the Bible and its message is basically, 'but if you live on, you live on for Christ'
To me, it reminded me that there's no way I can just abandon my life, however shattered it may be just because it is hard and things dont work out the way they do.
No matter how alone I feel or how discouraged I get, there is nothing I can do, nothing I SHOULD do but to keep on trying.
I have to strengthen my determination, my courage, my faith and *ergh* my patience. I have to grow in wisdom

oh crap gtg

This love is bringing me down~~

So this week has been a really turbulent week.
Barely got any sleep on most nights. Some nights I was out late and some nights I stayed up late and some nights I was kept up late.

Today at work was *sigh*. I was so tired that I kept messing up orders so I asked to go home early. I reached home and immediately went to bed.

This week sucks. I had to do a couple of things I shouldnt or didnt want to do. Some were unavoidable and some were just plain dumb.

And not only did I forget that cell usually starts at 8.30pm (and i've been going for cell for MONTHS), I thought today is Thursday. It isnt.

The only 'nice' thing about this week is probably Valentines though I got a small unexpected Valentine surprise a few days later.
So I've been ranting about how V'day is just another day and that its actually kinda dumb. It is.
I spent my Valentines helping out in my aunt's shop. The look on those guys faces when they came in to buy flowers for their girlfriends was just so- well, its quite indescribable. Some guys who were obviously not loaded, shelling out RM180 for a bouquet of flowers which would completely die in 2 weeks but that look on their faces.
As sweet as I thought it was, in my head I was going "you poor poor fools" RM180 for a dozen of nicely wrapped roses? Seriously. Rip off. My spies told me that bouquets in other shops were priced even higher.
Poor. Poor. Fools.
Some guys came in, looked around and when I asked if I could help them, they went, "I want to buy flowers"
duh?
Me: what flowers would you like?
Guy: Do you have roses?
Me: *gestures to the insane amount of roses in the shop* uh, yea.

Some guys even wanted me to write the card for them =_=" No. Way.
Imagine a dozen red roses wrapped so fine and when you flip open the note, it says "Happy Valentines Day" in girl writing. Really, guys?
I hope you girls are happy with your flowers, I am. I was paid a chunk of money! =D

But yea, this week aint working for me.

Another whiny post by Sam Chen!!

Hi...

Hi person-from-Klang-who-checks-my-blog-persistently.

So today I received a comment from one of my stalkers, "I cant stalk your blog if there are no updates"

I dunno what to post ma... Seriously. Sometimes I type out a post halfway then decide not to finish it for certain reasons and so no post. What should I post when I have nothing to post or no mood to post la?

Well... Work is very fun. I have learn a lot, some not related to my work at all. I also discovered something about myself. lol. self discovery~
I also discovered that young people like lattes. And aisha has a fantasy of having a shelf full of (useless but pretty) bottles as does Joshua. Oh gosh, totally forgot about their bottles. But then no one seems to have been drinking lattes lately.

What else eh? Actually, I have some stuff on my mind which I cant freely speak about here and I'm pretty distracted by it lately so its hard to crap.

So I guess this shall just be a post to let you stalkers know I'm still alive and kicking. Though if you were REALLY stalkers, you'd already know that =)

Peace out!

Oh yea, you invited peeps, please respond to my bbq invite on fb yea!

ps, I had fun today thought im sorry for the end

11:10pm

Sometimes, its a little hard to breathe.
Sometimes, its like standing on the edge for more than a moment past "too long". All the exhilaration is gone as is the adrenaline. You just peer off the edge and go, "fuck." Every bit and every shade of "I can do this" slowly trickles away leaving you in the deafening silence of  "I cant."
Sometimes, when enough darkness has slithered in, it is hard to keep the light burning...
Then now it turns into a perverse game devised by some creature of the dark, some cruel forces of the universe.
Its like some climax of a bad book or brightly colored comic book: "will the main character make it!?"
There's this short film where the roads were so jammed that a man decided to venture out his car in search of food and shelter. Then he meets a woman and together they build a life in an alley, trapped by never moving cars. They grow food and trap birds. Eventually they have a baby, a life. One day, when the baby is a bit older, they look out of the alley to find the cars are gone.
I dont know why this is popped into my head. A challenge perhaps, to build something out of a bleak situation. Well, hear this, world: "I NEED A BREAK!"
Take, take, take. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of all the mind fucks and all the screwing overs. I'm tired of the chess games and the strategies. You know what? For an 'intellectual', I HATE chess. I dont like it. I prefer checkers. I like backgammon. Pool. Risk. Poker. Uno. Even Monopoly, i can stand. I HATE CHESS.

So hey, whats say I get a little air?

Because I.... CANT. Breathe.

ps, to you-whom-i-shant-name
you can stop reading my blog lest your eyes rot from my pathetic-ness and you die of hatred and boredom. you were indupitively wrong about the best friend thing so you have ABSOLUTELY no worries.
May you all live a happy, prosperous life and Happy Chinese New Year.