I'm shaking my head with an abashed smile on my face and that "what can we do?" expression.
Seriously, some of the things I get myself into...
I have signed up online at 2 different sites which will let me help people plagiarize my writing and pretend it is theirs by handing me a wad of cash for my cooperation. Ah college, such a gold mine.
So I'm sitting here, waiting for my laundry to be done. My driving instructor has forgotten about me =( All for the best, I guess. it might be a divine sign.
While I was loading my laundry, I thought of an interesting post.
Why I'm Staying Single
1- Laundry
Now, those of you who know me know that I am a horribly lazy and undisciplined person. A boyfriend distracts me even further from the pile of ever growing dirty laundry in my room, screaming to be cared for. After a month, yes, a month, I am doing my laundry. Life is distracting and full enough of procrastinations already, go away.
2- I Get Fat(ter)
Before you get annoyed at me for my use of the word 'fat', I am using it lightly. 'Chubby' doesnt have the same ring. Due to my laziness, I have a tendency to skip meals or to just eat simple things like bread and honey stars *eyes honey stars in the container next to the computer*
Okay, I'm back. My stomach was growling so I just HAD to have some. Where was I? Oh. Okay. So what happens when there is this guy always asking me out to dinners and lunches or just dropping by only to be bullied by me to bring me to those delectable curry puffs I love so much, the mouth watering fried chicken I so desire or those savory yet crispy chocolate pastries I adore~ All that bak kut teh, Western food, fast food and Italian food~ I didnt mention Japanese food because it is generally pretty healthy.
3- Money, Money, Money
Dating = dates. Since I have never been the type to let a guy pay for everything for me, it means more 'money out' =( I spend enough on books and my usual weird stuff as it is. Also, guys have a tendency to bring me to 1 Utama and KLCC (okay, its cuz I like it there) and we know the stuff there ain't cheap.
Plus, all the smsing and phone calls.
4- Little Sister, Big Tantrum
She gets grumpy and pissy when I'm out a lot.
5- Kick-wha?
Dating makes me more docile. I am so not as kick ass and that is just sad. Plus, all the mushy stuff and the love songs make me gooey and hence, less kick ass.
6- Serena's dating who?
I get really behind on my TV shows though it is a happy goldmine when I get my alone time to update myself on 'all the latest gossip and I know I love her XOXO' and fill myself with Glee only to still NOT discover who is the mother of those stupid kids on that stupid sofa. A person should always keep up to date with their favorite series =(
I'm hungry now. So thats all for my list. Hope it was amusing enough =p
Friday, February 25, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Smell Of Your Perfume~
HELLO!!!!
It is a cold Thursday here in my bedroom where at 8:55am, I am still in my pajamas. Well, actually, my pajamas are usually just really comfy day clothes so... I am still in the clothes I wore to sleep.
Yes, unnecessary, I know.
I would like a club sandwich =( Those things are delicious~ (The one I eat regularly is at Coffee Bean BTW)
Yum~ Turkey ham with cheese and egg with a little bit of pepper~ *shivers*
Ok, yes, I'm hungry.
So Ridz is leaving today. Boo. I will miss him despite all our bickering and mindf***ing each other all the time. I dont know why he couldnt have gone back on the 26th like all the other people. Dumb ass.
It's been nice hanging out with you, Ridz, see you probably never =_="\
I wonder how you guys title your posts. More often than not, my titles have very little to do with my post and mostly to do with what's going through my head. Which is odd. Since the post is supposed to contain things going through my head. Huh.
I forgot to start my iTunes.
Oh, I just remembered something I can talk about! My BBQ!
Gosh, that was awesome. Fortunately there was enough food though Darren said there wasnt enough satay.
Sadly, a bunch of them couldnt make it because of
-exams
-assignments
-family stuff
-its Klang. . . . .
Ridz came first to help me set up then Joshua came at 6 so we started bbq-ing some chicken for ourselves~
Eventually, Ridz left to get Jeff and Ran and people very slowly tricked in. The first to arrive after that was Alex, Keith and Kok Hou. Then Ridz, Jeff, Ran came.
The look on the guys faces were ._.
"Sam, are there ANY girls coming?"
So there I was going "REALLY!!! There are!! Really! Tell them Joshua!"
Then Christina and Sherwyn came and proved it. Take that. LoL
At one point, before the girls arrived, I was looking out of the gate and the guy were talking then all of a sudden, Ridz shouted from the BBQ pit, "I DID SAM! I DID SAM!"
I turned around with my WTF face on but it turns out they were talking about South Australian Matriculation but I'm on to you, Ridz. I know you did that deliberately eventhough you really DID do SAM =_="
Best part: My dad was in earshot. Boom.
Other mishaps include me totally forgetting about plates and cups though sis Kim came to my rescue with cups and Foong arrived with plates in hand but neh, I know you guys had fun eating chicken like barbarians.
I am going to invite Randall and Jeff to every one of my BBQs from now on. Those guys know how to bbq yo.
Anyways, it was awesome and it was nice to see my subang family bonding with my klang family.
Sam: This is Alex, my 'big brother'
JQ: Eh, you guys even look alike!!
Ridz is a total photo crasher.
Actually, Kok Hou practically dominated the girls, one at a time
=)
It is a cold Thursday here in my bedroom where at 8:55am, I am still in my pajamas. Well, actually, my pajamas are usually just really comfy day clothes so... I am still in the clothes I wore to sleep.
Yes, unnecessary, I know.
I would like a club sandwich =( Those things are delicious~ (The one I eat regularly is at Coffee Bean BTW)
Yum~ Turkey ham with cheese and egg with a little bit of pepper~ *shivers*
Ok, yes, I'm hungry.
So Ridz is leaving today. Boo. I will miss him despite all our bickering and mindf***ing each other all the time. I dont know why he couldnt have gone back on the 26th like all the other people. Dumb ass.
It's been nice hanging out with you, Ridz, see you probably never =_="\
I wonder how you guys title your posts. More often than not, my titles have very little to do with my post and mostly to do with what's going through my head. Which is odd. Since the post is supposed to contain things going through my head. Huh.
I forgot to start my iTunes.
Oh, I just remembered something I can talk about! My BBQ!
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| Taken by one of the guys |
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| My really huge family |
Sadly, a bunch of them couldnt make it because of
-exams
-assignments
-family stuff
-its Klang. . . . .
Ridz came first to help me set up then Joshua came at 6 so we started bbq-ing some chicken for ourselves~
Eventually, Ridz left to get Jeff and Ran and people very slowly tricked in. The first to arrive after that was Alex, Keith and Kok Hou. Then Ridz, Jeff, Ran came.
The look on the guys faces were ._.
"Sam, are there ANY girls coming?"
So there I was going "REALLY!!! There are!! Really! Tell them Joshua!"
Then Christina and Sherwyn came and proved it. Take that. LoL
At one point, before the girls arrived, I was looking out of the gate and the guy were talking then all of a sudden, Ridz shouted from the BBQ pit, "I DID SAM! I DID SAM!"
I turned around with my WTF face on but it turns out they were talking about South Australian Matriculation but I'm on to you, Ridz. I know you did that deliberately eventhough you really DID do SAM =_="
Best part: My dad was in earshot. Boom.
Other mishaps include me totally forgetting about plates and cups though sis Kim came to my rescue with cups and Foong arrived with plates in hand but neh, I know you guys had fun eating chicken like barbarians.
I am going to invite Randall and Jeff to every one of my BBQs from now on. Those guys know how to bbq yo.
Anyways, it was awesome and it was nice to see my subang family bonding with my klang family.
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| Big Brother, Alex |
JQ: Eh, you guys even look alike!!
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| Me, Ridz and JQ |
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| We girls look tiny. |
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| Sis Kim and Bawanie |
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| I love this picture, its like "Say wha-?" |
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| Jeff, Sherwen and Christina |
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| Aisha: Ewwwwwwww |
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| Kok Hou: No one likes me =( |
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| Really sweet pic |
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| Sam's BBQ a.k.a. photo shoot |
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| Sam: Aisha, move! We're creating a scandal! |
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Dint I, Dint I, Dint I See You Cryinnn
This is a song that has been stuck in my head for weeks since I watched 'John Tucker Must Die'. I finally grew frustrated with knowing only two lines of the song and decided to google it.
As simple of a song it is, it is actually pretty nice and singable.
Wow, this is the fifth year my blog is up. Thinking back to the things that happened in 2007, it really makes me feel ._.
I have to go soon to pick up my sister...
You know, life gets really hard sometimes but there's always a reason to smile. Last night, after I typed out that post, I went for cell and ended up in stitches. Not literally. I just mean I laughed so much.
So things dont end the way I want them to and relationships dont go the direction I hope they would, situations dont magically resolve themselves and decisions are hard to make especially when they are monumental.
Last night, Su Ling read a passage from the Bible and its message is basically, 'but if you live on, you live on for Christ'
To me, it reminded me that there's no way I can just abandon my life, however shattered it may be just because it is hard and things dont work out the way they do.
No matter how alone I feel or how discouraged I get, there is nothing I can do, nothing I SHOULD do but to keep on trying.
I have to strengthen my determination, my courage, my faith and *ergh* my patience. I have to grow in wisdom
oh crap gtg
As simple of a song it is, it is actually pretty nice and singable.
Wow, this is the fifth year my blog is up. Thinking back to the things that happened in 2007, it really makes me feel ._.
I have to go soon to pick up my sister...
You know, life gets really hard sometimes but there's always a reason to smile. Last night, after I typed out that post, I went for cell and ended up in stitches. Not literally. I just mean I laughed so much.
So things dont end the way I want them to and relationships dont go the direction I hope they would, situations dont magically resolve themselves and decisions are hard to make especially when they are monumental.
Last night, Su Ling read a passage from the Bible and its message is basically, 'but if you live on, you live on for Christ'
To me, it reminded me that there's no way I can just abandon my life, however shattered it may be just because it is hard and things dont work out the way they do.
No matter how alone I feel or how discouraged I get, there is nothing I can do, nothing I SHOULD do but to keep on trying.
I have to strengthen my determination, my courage, my faith and *ergh* my patience. I have to grow in wisdom
oh crap gtg
Friday, February 18, 2011
This love is bringing me down~~
So this week has been a really turbulent week.
Barely got any sleep on most nights. Some nights I was out late and some nights I stayed up late and some nights I was kept up late.
Today at work was *sigh*. I was so tired that I kept messing up orders so I asked to go home early. I reached home and immediately went to bed.
This week sucks. I had to do a couple of things I shouldnt or didnt want to do. Some were unavoidable and some were just plain dumb.
And not only did I forget that cell usually starts at 8.30pm (and i've been going for cell for MONTHS), I thought today is Thursday. It isnt.
The only 'nice' thing about this week is probably Valentines though I got a small unexpected Valentine surprise a few days later.
So I've been ranting about how V'day is just another day and that its actually kinda dumb. It is.
I spent my Valentines helping out in my aunt's shop. The look on those guys faces when they came in to buy flowers for their girlfriends was just so- well, its quite indescribable. Some guys who were obviously not loaded, shelling out RM180 for a bouquet of flowers which would completely die in 2 weeks but that look on their faces.
As sweet as I thought it was, in my head I was going "you poor poor fools" RM180 for a dozen of nicely wrapped roses? Seriously. Rip off. My spies told me that bouquets in other shops were priced even higher.
Poor. Poor. Fools.
Some guys came in, looked around and when I asked if I could help them, they went, "I want to buy flowers"
duh?
Me: what flowers would you like?
Guy: Do you have roses?
Me: *gestures to the insane amount of roses in the shop* uh, yea.
Some guys even wanted me to write the card for them =_=" No. Way.
Imagine a dozen red roses wrapped so fine and when you flip open the note, it says "Happy Valentines Day" in girl writing. Really, guys?
I hope you girls are happy with your flowers, I am. I was paid a chunk of money! =D
But yea, this week aint working for me.
Another whiny post by Sam Chen!!
Barely got any sleep on most nights. Some nights I was out late and some nights I stayed up late and some nights I was kept up late.
Today at work was *sigh*. I was so tired that I kept messing up orders so I asked to go home early. I reached home and immediately went to bed.
This week sucks. I had to do a couple of things I shouldnt or didnt want to do. Some were unavoidable and some were just plain dumb.
And not only did I forget that cell usually starts at 8.30pm (and i've been going for cell for MONTHS), I thought today is Thursday. It isnt.
The only 'nice' thing about this week is probably Valentines though I got a small unexpected Valentine surprise a few days later.
So I've been ranting about how V'day is just another day and that its actually kinda dumb. It is.
I spent my Valentines helping out in my aunt's shop. The look on those guys faces when they came in to buy flowers for their girlfriends was just so- well, its quite indescribable. Some guys who were obviously not loaded, shelling out RM180 for a bouquet of flowers which would completely die in 2 weeks but that look on their faces.
As sweet as I thought it was, in my head I was going "you poor poor fools" RM180 for a dozen of nicely wrapped roses? Seriously. Rip off. My spies told me that bouquets in other shops were priced even higher.
Poor. Poor. Fools.
Some guys came in, looked around and when I asked if I could help them, they went, "I want to buy flowers"
duh?
Me: what flowers would you like?
Guy: Do you have roses?
Me: *gestures to the insane amount of roses in the shop* uh, yea.
Some guys even wanted me to write the card for them =_=" No. Way.
Imagine a dozen red roses wrapped so fine and when you flip open the note, it says "Happy Valentines Day" in girl writing. Really, guys?
I hope you girls are happy with your flowers, I am. I was paid a chunk of money! =D
But yea, this week aint working for me.
Another whiny post by Sam Chen!!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Hi...
Hi person-from-Klang-who-checks-my-blog-persistently.
So today I received a comment from one of my stalkers, "I cant stalk your blog if there are no updates"
I dunno what to post ma... Seriously. Sometimes I type out a post halfway then decide not to finish it for certain reasons and so no post. What should I post when I have nothing to post or no mood to post la?
Well... Work is very fun. I have learn a lot, some not related to my work at all. I also discovered something about myself. lol. self discovery~
I also discovered that young people like lattes. And aisha has a fantasy of having a shelf full of (useless but pretty) bottles as does Joshua. Oh gosh, totally forgot about their bottles. But then no one seems to have been drinking lattes lately.
What else eh? Actually, I have some stuff on my mind which I cant freely speak about here and I'm pretty distracted by it lately so its hard to crap.
So I guess this shall just be a post to let you stalkers know I'm still alive and kicking. Though if you were REALLY stalkers, you'd already know that =)
Peace out!
Oh yea, you invited peeps, please respond to my bbq invite on fb yea!
ps, I had fun today thought im sorry for the end
So today I received a comment from one of my stalkers, "I cant stalk your blog if there are no updates"
I dunno what to post ma... Seriously. Sometimes I type out a post halfway then decide not to finish it for certain reasons and so no post. What should I post when I have nothing to post or no mood to post la?
Well... Work is very fun. I have learn a lot, some not related to my work at all. I also discovered something about myself. lol. self discovery~
I also discovered that young people like lattes. And aisha has a fantasy of having a shelf full of (useless but pretty) bottles as does Joshua. Oh gosh, totally forgot about their bottles. But then no one seems to have been drinking lattes lately.
What else eh? Actually, I have some stuff on my mind which I cant freely speak about here and I'm pretty distracted by it lately so its hard to crap.
So I guess this shall just be a post to let you stalkers know I'm still alive and kicking. Though if you were REALLY stalkers, you'd already know that =)
Peace out!
Oh yea, you invited peeps, please respond to my bbq invite on fb yea!
ps, I had fun today thought im sorry for the end
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
11:10pm
Sometimes, its a little hard to breathe.
Sometimes, its like standing on the edge for more than a moment past "too long". All the exhilaration is gone as is the adrenaline. You just peer off the edge and go, "fuck." Every bit and every shade of "I can do this" slowly trickles away leaving you in the deafening silence of "I cant."
Sometimes, when enough darkness has slithered in, it is hard to keep the light burning...
Then now it turns into a perverse game devised by some creature of the dark, some cruel forces of the universe.
Its like some climax of a bad book or brightly colored comic book: "will the main character make it!?"
There's this short film where the roads were so jammed that a man decided to venture out his car in search of food and shelter. Then he meets a woman and together they build a life in an alley, trapped by never moving cars. They grow food and trap birds. Eventually they have a baby, a life. One day, when the baby is a bit older, they look out of the alley to find the cars are gone.
I dont know why this is popped into my head. A challenge perhaps, to build something out of a bleak situation. Well, hear this, world: "I NEED A BREAK!"
Take, take, take. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of all the mind fucks and all the screwing overs. I'm tired of the chess games and the strategies. You know what? For an 'intellectual', I HATE chess. I dont like it. I prefer checkers. I like backgammon. Pool. Risk. Poker. Uno. Even Monopoly, i can stand. I HATE CHESS.
So hey, whats say I get a little air?
Because I.... CANT. Breathe.
ps, to you-whom-i-shant-name
you can stop reading my blog lest your eyes rot from my pathetic-ness and you die of hatred and boredom. you were indupitively wrong about the best friend thing so you have ABSOLUTELY no worries.
May you all live a happy, prosperous life and Happy Chinese New Year.
Sometimes, its like standing on the edge for more than a moment past "too long". All the exhilaration is gone as is the adrenaline. You just peer off the edge and go, "fuck." Every bit and every shade of "I can do this" slowly trickles away leaving you in the deafening silence of "I cant."
Sometimes, when enough darkness has slithered in, it is hard to keep the light burning...
Then now it turns into a perverse game devised by some creature of the dark, some cruel forces of the universe.
Its like some climax of a bad book or brightly colored comic book: "will the main character make it!?"
There's this short film where the roads were so jammed that a man decided to venture out his car in search of food and shelter. Then he meets a woman and together they build a life in an alley, trapped by never moving cars. They grow food and trap birds. Eventually they have a baby, a life. One day, when the baby is a bit older, they look out of the alley to find the cars are gone.
I dont know why this is popped into my head. A challenge perhaps, to build something out of a bleak situation. Well, hear this, world: "I NEED A BREAK!"
Take, take, take. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of all the mind fucks and all the screwing overs. I'm tired of the chess games and the strategies. You know what? For an 'intellectual', I HATE chess. I dont like it. I prefer checkers. I like backgammon. Pool. Risk. Poker. Uno. Even Monopoly, i can stand. I HATE CHESS.
So hey, whats say I get a little air?
Because I.... CANT. Breathe.
ps, to you-whom-i-shant-name
you can stop reading my blog lest your eyes rot from my pathetic-ness and you die of hatred and boredom. you were indupitively wrong about the best friend thing so you have ABSOLUTELY no worries.
May you all live a happy, prosperous life and Happy Chinese New Year.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Egypt
So, its gotten even worst over there
http://ariffshah.com/krisis-mesir-keadaan-sebenar-pelajar-malaysia/
I have a few dear friends studying there.
Please pray for the safety of the overseas students, the citizens, for the government and generally for Egypt.
http://ariffshah.com/krisis-mesir-keadaan-sebenar-pelajar-malaysia/
I have a few dear friends studying there.
Please pray for the safety of the overseas students, the citizens, for the government and generally for Egypt.
11:11
There's this *insert-proper-name-for-this-type-of-saying-here* that if you look at the clock and it says 11:11 or 1:11, it means someone is thinking of you. I was reminded of it while I watched a korean tv series.
And for the past three days, it just happens to be that 75% of the time when its 1:11am, 11:11am, 1:11pm, 11:11pm, I happen to glace at the time and it just pops into my head, "Ooo, someone's thinking of me."
LoL. This is what TV does to your brain.
Yesterday, I was reminded of Valentines by a secretly sentimentalold sap guy.
Right after we stated how Valentines is just a scam to rip off idiots, he *bleeeeeeeeeeeep*
- I'm sorry, portions of this story is not fit for general knowledge-
but it was something pretty sweet
Yes, I am a sappy romantic. You should see my fantasies about my wedding and the many many fantasies of the way my future husband will propose to me. They are so romantic and gooey, I'm surprised my ears dont leak heart shapes and pink glitter.
Valentines though?
Pffffffffftt.
Yes, the romantic in me would like to celebrate Valentines (in the non consumerist way) but I firmly believe it is a bunch of hogwash, bull****, nonsense.
Seriously, girls? You let a guy get away with celebrating your love ONCE A YEAR? Okay, maybe another time on your Anniversary and maybe some on your birthday.
Love, true love, is something that is celebrated every day. It does not require planned grand gestures, expensive meals or over priced roses once a year. Love is something that comes naturally.
Love is walking through the mall, thinking, "s/he'll like this" and getting it
Love is driving home and thinking, "maybe I'll pick up some food s/he likes"
I was about to continue there but really, I become a sap when I start talking about love.
Basically, to me, love is simple, love is pure.
If its complicated, that isnt love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 sums up love perfectly
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil but is happy with truth. Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fails.
Look all around you. There are people in the grips of infatuation, lust and addiction passing off what they feel as love. I know because I do it regularly (prayerfully, not any more)
Do you know of the rule and exception?
The explanation given in the wikilink is confusing.
"The original meaning of this idiom is that the presence of an exception establishes that a general rule exists."
I originally got to hear of this from "He's just not that into you"
Gigi: I think I've figured it out. Remember when I went out with that notary public and he cheated on me and then Anastasia from upstairs told me about how her boyfriend cheated on her in the beginning then he totally changed and now they're married and crazy in love?
Beth: I thought that guy was a process server.
Gigi: No notary. Anyway my point is, Anastasia is the exception, not the rule. We have to stop listening to these stories because they rule is most guys who cheat on you up front don't really care about you very much.
Janine: Ok.
Gigi: Ok, Ok. Exhibit A. Chad the drummer who lived in a storage space. He only used me for rides and yet I continued to stalk him for most of 1998. Then oh, um, there was Don, that broke up with me every Friday so that he could have his weekends free. I was delusional about that relationship. I used to refer to him as my husband to random people, like my dental hygienist. Anyway, all my friends used to tell me about how things might work out with these dipsticks because they knew someone, who knew someone, who dated a dipstick just like mine. That girl ended up getting married and living happily ever after. That the exception and we're not the exception we're the rule.
Let's take it one step further. Infatuation is the rule. Love is the exception. You may think you're in love. Think again.
I really dont mean to sound like a pessimist about love, like i said, I'm a romantic. But look at the last dialog. Chad and Don that Gigi dated, is that love? Its not right? but she convinced herself, at that time, that it was.
AND thats what we do now a days. We convince ourselves that what we feel is love, that it is unrivaled to any other feeling we've had before, we convince ourselves of all these things because we're so full of hope, because we like having that special someone.
What happens when infatuation wears off?
Have you heard of a movie called "Fireproof"? Its a movie about a couple who fight a lot and are thinking of getting a divorce. Then blablabla, they GROW to love one another again. They dont FALL in love.
Falling in love sucks.
I'm not saying that if you 'eventually realized you had strong feelings for someone' means its real. I'm just saying, its a pretty safe bet that if you like someone from a far, you dont know that person.
It sounds old fashioned, cliche and outdated to say things like guard your heart and wait on love. Well, I'm an old fashioned kinda gal. The thing about good old fashioned values are is that most of them actually worked.
A friend and I were debating once about the old fashioned way. When i stated that divorce rates are climbing higher and higher, he retorted that it was disgraceful in the past to get divorced.
WHY IS IT OKAY NOW? Wedding vows are "Till death do us apart" not "Till we drive each other away".
Quote from Fireproof
Michael Simmons: The sad part about it is, when most people promise for better or for worse, they really only mean for the better.
Sure, marriages were arranged at some point back in time but a lot (not saying all) of these people got to grow in love.
By NOT getting divorced, couples were forced to "live with it" and figure things out. Now a days, people just bail when they think its a lost cause. < *inserts fireproof*
A quote from that movie
Caleb Holt: Marriage isn't fireproof.
Michael Simmons: Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it.
This is a really good line.
Sometimes when I get onto this topic (specifically about couples who fight too much), people say, "Hey, Sam. All couples fight."
*Sam points at quote above* I agree but when the good outweighs the bad, what exactly are you in the relationship for?
At the same time, just because things are hard, doesnt mean you give up. All this requires wisdom to discern between the two cases.
I was in a bad relationship once. We fought a lot and there was a lot of bad stuff that went down but I just kept convincing myself that I could make things work. We were together for 2.5 years before I finally managed to break up with him once and for all.
And yes, I've had several boyfriends. Sometimes, I wish it was different.
So people talk about saving their virginity for marriage but what about the little things?
Like your first kiss. Like slow dancing on the beach during the sunset. Like falling asleep in someone's arms (besides your family la).
Okay, my post is getting a little messy.
Conclusion:
~Your heart can be deceiving. When you make decisions and choices, use wisdom. Not brains, wisdom.
~Wait on love because there is no rush. If he (or she) is the right one, you dont have to worry about the right timing, the right circumstances or the right conditions. It will happen.
Honestly, I'm impatient for love to happen to me too but I gotta be patient if I want that guy who was made for me.
~Always remember that while you should concentrate on the present, cast an eye on the future. Dont just date 'for fun' and to 'see how it goes'. Its unfair. Despite what society today thinks, it is important to keep in mind if you would marry that person you're dating.
Q: What is the purpose of your relationship?
~Love is the exception. Infatuation is the rule. Dont be confused, dont be fooled.
PS. Read Joshua Harris' "Boy Meets Girl"
It is a very insightful book about dating. Anyone who wants to borrow it can ask me =)
And for the past three days, it just happens to be that 75% of the time when its 1:11am, 11:11am, 1:11pm, 11:11pm, I happen to glace at the time and it just pops into my head, "Ooo, someone's thinking of me."
LoL. This is what TV does to your brain.
Yesterday, I was reminded of Valentines by a secretly sentimental
Right after we stated how Valentines is just a scam to rip off idiots, he *bleeeeeeeeeeeep*
- I'm sorry, portions of this story is not fit for general knowledge-
but it was something pretty sweet
Yes, I am a sappy romantic. You should see my fantasies about my wedding and the many many fantasies of the way my future husband will propose to me. They are so romantic and gooey, I'm surprised my ears dont leak heart shapes and pink glitter.
Valentines though?
Pffffffffftt.
Yes, the romantic in me would like to celebrate Valentines (in the non consumerist way) but I firmly believe it is a bunch of hogwash, bull****, nonsense.
Seriously, girls? You let a guy get away with celebrating your love ONCE A YEAR? Okay, maybe another time on your Anniversary and maybe some on your birthday.
Love, true love, is something that is celebrated every day. It does not require planned grand gestures, expensive meals or over priced roses once a year. Love is something that comes naturally.
Love is walking through the mall, thinking, "s/he'll like this" and getting it
Love is driving home and thinking, "maybe I'll pick up some food s/he likes"
I was about to continue there but really, I become a sap when I start talking about love.
Basically, to me, love is simple, love is pure.
If its complicated, that isnt love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 sums up love perfectly
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil but is happy with truth. Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fails.
Look all around you. There are people in the grips of infatuation, lust and addiction passing off what they feel as love. I know because I do it regularly (prayerfully, not any more)
Do you know of the rule and exception?
The explanation given in the wikilink is confusing.
"The original meaning of this idiom is that the presence of an exception establishes that a general rule exists."
I originally got to hear of this from "He's just not that into you"
Gigi: I think I've figured it out. Remember when I went out with that notary public and he cheated on me and then Anastasia from upstairs told me about how her boyfriend cheated on her in the beginning then he totally changed and now they're married and crazy in love?
Beth: I thought that guy was a process server.
Gigi: No notary. Anyway my point is, Anastasia is the exception, not the rule. We have to stop listening to these stories because they rule is most guys who cheat on you up front don't really care about you very much.
Janine: Ok.
Gigi: Ok, Ok. Exhibit A. Chad the drummer who lived in a storage space. He only used me for rides and yet I continued to stalk him for most of 1998. Then oh, um, there was Don, that broke up with me every Friday so that he could have his weekends free. I was delusional about that relationship. I used to refer to him as my husband to random people, like my dental hygienist. Anyway, all my friends used to tell me about how things might work out with these dipsticks because they knew someone, who knew someone, who dated a dipstick just like mine. That girl ended up getting married and living happily ever after. That the exception and we're not the exception we're the rule.
Let's take it one step further. Infatuation is the rule. Love is the exception. You may think you're in love. Think again.
I really dont mean to sound like a pessimist about love, like i said, I'm a romantic. But look at the last dialog. Chad and Don that Gigi dated, is that love? Its not right? but she convinced herself, at that time, that it was.
AND thats what we do now a days. We convince ourselves that what we feel is love, that it is unrivaled to any other feeling we've had before, we convince ourselves of all these things because we're so full of hope, because we like having that special someone.
What happens when infatuation wears off?
Have you heard of a movie called "Fireproof"? Its a movie about a couple who fight a lot and are thinking of getting a divorce. Then blablabla, they GROW to love one another again. They dont FALL in love.
Falling in love sucks.
I'm not saying that if you 'eventually realized you had strong feelings for someone' means its real. I'm just saying, its a pretty safe bet that if you like someone from a far, you dont know that person.
It sounds old fashioned, cliche and outdated to say things like guard your heart and wait on love. Well, I'm an old fashioned kinda gal. The thing about good old fashioned values are is that most of them actually worked.
A friend and I were debating once about the old fashioned way. When i stated that divorce rates are climbing higher and higher, he retorted that it was disgraceful in the past to get divorced.
WHY IS IT OKAY NOW? Wedding vows are "Till death do us apart" not "Till we drive each other away".
Quote from Fireproof
Michael Simmons: The sad part about it is, when most people promise for better or for worse, they really only mean for the better.
Sure, marriages were arranged at some point back in time but a lot (not saying all) of these people got to grow in love.
By NOT getting divorced, couples were forced to "live with it" and figure things out. Now a days, people just bail when they think its a lost cause. < *inserts fireproof*
A quote from that movie
Caleb Holt: Marriage isn't fireproof.
Michael Simmons: Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it.
This is a really good line.
Sometimes when I get onto this topic (specifically about couples who fight too much), people say, "Hey, Sam. All couples fight."
*Sam points at quote above* I agree but when the good outweighs the bad, what exactly are you in the relationship for?
At the same time, just because things are hard, doesnt mean you give up. All this requires wisdom to discern between the two cases.
I was in a bad relationship once. We fought a lot and there was a lot of bad stuff that went down but I just kept convincing myself that I could make things work. We were together for 2.5 years before I finally managed to break up with him once and for all.
And yes, I've had several boyfriends. Sometimes, I wish it was different.
So people talk about saving their virginity for marriage but what about the little things?
Like your first kiss. Like slow dancing on the beach during the sunset. Like falling asleep in someone's arms (besides your family la).
Okay, my post is getting a little messy.
Conclusion:
~Your heart can be deceiving. When you make decisions and choices, use wisdom. Not brains, wisdom.
~Wait on love because there is no rush. If he (or she) is the right one, you dont have to worry about the right timing, the right circumstances or the right conditions. It will happen.
Honestly, I'm impatient for love to happen to me too but I gotta be patient if I want that guy who was made for me.
~Always remember that while you should concentrate on the present, cast an eye on the future. Dont just date 'for fun' and to 'see how it goes'. Its unfair. Despite what society today thinks, it is important to keep in mind if you would marry that person you're dating.
Q: What is the purpose of your relationship?
~Love is the exception. Infatuation is the rule. Dont be confused, dont be fooled.
PS. Read Joshua Harris' "Boy Meets Girl"
It is a very insightful book about dating. Anyone who wants to borrow it can ask me =)
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I google myself.
First off, Hi, Klang-person-who-googles-my-blog-instead-of-typing-in-the-url.
Hi, random-people-who-got-here-by-googling-Samantha-Chen
*goes to google Samantha Chen*
yea, I just googled myself.
LOOOK http://samanthachen.com/ a cute little girl and a cute little boy and a cute little baby!!
That aside...
Gosh, I got totally sidetracked. Seems like quite a few people are curious about tattoos judging from how popular my last post was o_o
My piano just arrived minus the chair. i need to get someone to fix it. Speaking of which, i need to get my laptop too.
hey, whats the big deal about googling yourself? I dont really get whats the fuss. So you're curious where you appear on the internet and you're curious about the people who share the same name. So?
Hungry...
Hi, random-people-who-got-here-by-googling-Samantha-Chen
*goes to google Samantha Chen*
yea, I just googled myself.
LOOOK http://samanthachen.com/ a cute little girl and a cute little boy and a cute little baby!!
That aside...
Gosh, I got totally sidetracked. Seems like quite a few people are curious about tattoos judging from how popular my last post was o_o
My piano just arrived minus the chair. i need to get someone to fix it. Speaking of which, i need to get my laptop too.
hey, whats the big deal about googling yourself? I dont really get whats the fuss. So you're curious where you appear on the internet and you're curious about the people who share the same name. So?
Hungry...
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
The Girl With The Butterfly Tattoo
I could tell you that my tattoo symbolizes a caterpillar bursting out of its cocoon, that its a symbol of change, freedom and beauty. I could say that it symbolizes simplicity, evolution, and the little things in life.
I could... but that sure ain't the truth. I got a butterfly because hearts are clichéd, flowers are boring and I like butterflies.
Even though my tattoo COULD symbolize all that, it is the truth that none of this was in my mind while I sat under the buzzing needle, penetrating my skin repeatedly and sinking ink into my flesh.
Number 1 question I get about my tattoo:
Does it hurt?
Yes. Yes, it hurts. Does it hurt because I'm a girl, no =_= Even though I have a high tolerance of pain, it still hurt.
My tattoo is a simple design. Mono-color. The bigger, more elaborate and more colorful the design the more it hurts.
Number 2:
Is it expensive?
I consider anything that is "a waste of money" to be expensive. Hence, as a tattoo has no purpose actually, it is expensive.
Number 3:
Why'd you get it?
For a reason I dont want to put here. But feel free to ask me personally.
Neh, it ain't that cool. So why bother?
I could... but that sure ain't the truth. I got a butterfly because hearts are clichéd, flowers are boring and I like butterflies.
Even though my tattoo COULD symbolize all that, it is the truth that none of this was in my mind while I sat under the buzzing needle, penetrating my skin repeatedly and sinking ink into my flesh.
Number 1 question I get about my tattoo:
Does it hurt?
Yes. Yes, it hurts. Does it hurt because I'm a girl, no =_= Even though I have a high tolerance of pain, it still hurt.
My tattoo is a simple design. Mono-color. The bigger, more elaborate and more colorful the design the more it hurts.
Number 2:
Is it expensive?
I consider anything that is "a waste of money" to be expensive. Hence, as a tattoo has no purpose actually, it is expensive.
Number 3:
Why'd you get it?
For a reason I dont want to put here. But feel free to ask me personally.
Number 4:
Its so cool!
For all those Captain Obvious out there, yes, this is a statement, not a question.
Cool? I dont know why people think its cool. Just because not many people have one, its cool. What about a motorbike? That's cool but no one wants to let me get one.
So...
Would I do it again?
-or-
Would I encourage others to do so?
Nope. Not at all. A tattoo has no purpose. it is an outward sign of what? Nothing much, actually.
And whether you like it or not, there is a stigma attached to it. Now, I'm not one of those people who are very bothered by this. If someone isnt gonna be nice just because I have a tattoo then that isnt the kind of person I want to hang out with in the first place.
But it does make things more challenging. Think into the future. Even though we (those with tattoos) may not care how society perceives us for having body art, it is an inconvenience for people to have that 'first impression' tainted with that one patch of ink.
My tattoo is on my back, right shoulder. Now, think of my wedding dress. I still have no idea how I'm gonna pull it off unless I wear a dress that can hide it. or use a massive amount of foundation.
but why do I have to hide it?
My tattoo does not define me.
But it is a part of who I am.
Neh, it ain't that cool. So why bother?
Thursday, January 20, 2011
All night long...
It has officially happened. I have turned vamp. My sleeping hours have gotten more and more erratic and I stayed up the whole night =_=" I knew I shud have just woken up when Aisha called, popped a panadol and go find dinner. LoL
After this post, I'm going to bed (finally) and hope that no one calls my phone till afternoon >_< crap. and i was supposed to have brekkie with a friend...
I read Aisha's post on Uniqlo and was reminded. I went there sometime last week and I got a very nice turtleneck long sleeve top for RM25!! The material is really soft and nice too. 25!~
I also saw a really nice white shirt that was so soft, so pretty. But it cost a hundred bucks so i was like "ooooh-kayyy. no."
the clothes there are pretty okay though some of the sweaters seem seriously too thick for Malaysian weather unless you're like me or worst. I wear a long sleeved top over a shirt/spaghetti strap/sleeveless come rain or sunshine. Imagine how cold HICT is that even in that, sometimes I'm still freezing...
Like Aisha, I dont get the fuss over the "grand opening". All a bunch of hype. Seriously. Its a clothing store. No free bag/clothes for the first 10/50/100. No free food. No 80% off for the first 100.
i remember smsing Foong when he was there for the opening. (In his defense, he was there to write an article about it) After waiting two hours, he gave up and went for marutama =) I then proceeded to laugh at his huge waste of time. Well, it wasnt a complete waste, he won a RM50 voucher (i forgot for what, uniqlo?) from the Hitz.fm peeps who were there.
Still, haha.
Went to KL the other day with my sisters. It is amazing that I didnt get lost on my first time going into the city without an experienced navigator AND both my sisters shrieking in the backseat over one thing or another.
Saw the perfect place to have a party at Lot10 but it'd surely cost a bomb and Emily was casting forlorn looks at the place. It had a disco ball.
I really need to get a job .-.
AHHHHH MY ROOM IS FREEZING
*goes to hibernate under my blanket at 8:20pm*
After this post, I'm going to bed (finally) and hope that no one calls my phone till afternoon >_< crap. and i was supposed to have brekkie with a friend...
I read Aisha's post on Uniqlo and was reminded. I went there sometime last week and I got a very nice turtleneck long sleeve top for RM25!! The material is really soft and nice too. 25!~
I also saw a really nice white shirt that was so soft, so pretty. But it cost a hundred bucks so i was like "ooooh-kayyy. no."
the clothes there are pretty okay though some of the sweaters seem seriously too thick for Malaysian weather unless you're like me or worst. I wear a long sleeved top over a shirt/spaghetti strap/sleeveless come rain or sunshine. Imagine how cold HICT is that even in that, sometimes I'm still freezing...
Like Aisha, I dont get the fuss over the "grand opening". All a bunch of hype. Seriously. Its a clothing store. No free bag/clothes for the first 10/50/100. No free food. No 80% off for the first 100.
i remember smsing Foong when he was there for the opening. (In his defense, he was there to write an article about it) After waiting two hours, he gave up and went for marutama =) I then proceeded to laugh at his huge waste of time. Well, it wasnt a complete waste, he won a RM50 voucher (i forgot for what, uniqlo?) from the Hitz.fm peeps who were there.
Still, haha.
Went to KL the other day with my sisters. It is amazing that I didnt get lost on my first time going into the city without an experienced navigator AND both my sisters shrieking in the backseat over one thing or another.
Saw the perfect place to have a party at Lot10 but it'd surely cost a bomb and Emily was casting forlorn looks at the place. It had a disco ball.
I really need to get a job .-.
AHHHHH MY ROOM IS FREEZING
*goes to hibernate under my blanket at 8:20pm*
Thursday, January 13, 2011
The Reason Why
"There's a reason why they
Say that we should give it time
But time is not enough and that's the reason why
When you're young, you fall in love"
- Click Five
Now before you rack your head looking for hidden meanings in me posting this song, dont. Haha. Its just the song that's playing and I used the song title as the post title =D
So tonight is not a clubbing night because Quah is away. And I slept like two hours this morning. I went to sleep when my sister left for school. Why? Because I just simply didnt feel sleepy. Stupid right?
As a result, I am sitting here on my bed (as usual), typing out stuff because (as usual) my head is filled with all kinds of thoughts.
Sometimes it feels kinda dumb to keep a blog. To some degree, I restrict what I say here because I have no control over who sees this. I dont want to make it private because if someone takes the effort to look for my blog, its gonna be there for them to see it.
Anyways, yeah, even if like less than 10 people read it, its okay because its also a journal for me to look back on months and years from now.
Reading my blog, maybe someone will see things in a different light or gain a new perspective on me.
Reading my blog, i remember the things that once were and it is my archive of memories stored in pixels.
What is love?
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 says
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrings; love is not happy with evil, but it happy with truth. Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fails.
Say that we should give it time
But time is not enough and that's the reason why
When you're young, you fall in love"
- Click Five
Now before you rack your head looking for hidden meanings in me posting this song, dont. Haha. Its just the song that's playing and I used the song title as the post title =D
So tonight is not a clubbing night because Quah is away. And I slept like two hours this morning. I went to sleep when my sister left for school. Why? Because I just simply didnt feel sleepy. Stupid right?
As a result, I am sitting here on my bed (as usual), typing out stuff because (as usual) my head is filled with all kinds of thoughts.
Sometimes it feels kinda dumb to keep a blog. To some degree, I restrict what I say here because I have no control over who sees this. I dont want to make it private because if someone takes the effort to look for my blog, its gonna be there for them to see it.
Anyways, yeah, even if like less than 10 people read it, its okay because its also a journal for me to look back on months and years from now.
Reading my blog, maybe someone will see things in a different light or gain a new perspective on me.
Reading my blog, i remember the things that once were and it is my archive of memories stored in pixels.
What is love?
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 says
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrings; love is not happy with evil, but it happy with truth. Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fails.
I feel good, nana nana nana na.,,,
Ah, feel good moments....
www.thefreedictionary.com defines "Feel-good" as
That is the sucky thing about feel good moments. Guilty pleasures. Like eating a bag of potato chips, snacking on a bar of chocolate and washing it down with a bottle of sugary soft drink. Oh. Like eating a stuffed crust pizza.
Yes yes, I know its not only about food.
There's this stupid saying, "How can something that feels so right be so wrong?"
How can something that feels so right be so wrong?
Or, in the words of David Houston & Barbara Mandrell "How can it be wrong when it feels so right?"
Yeaaaah. That is exactly how it goes. Feel-good moments are rooted from lust. It can be the lust for food, a person, a feeling, a material posession...
You think, "I really want this" and your mind and body plays tricks on you, making you believe that. You tell yourself that you are powerless to resist it, its inevitable. It is a deep longing, a sinful desire, a cruel lust. "But how can it be wrong when it feels so right," you tell yourself in an attempt to justify your cravings.Lust convinces you that 'just this once' is enough to satisfy you.
Then there is a moment, that moment when it all just lingers at the tip of your tongue. You are just an inch away from giving in. That moment is the 'make or break' moment. The moment where you make the decision: will you do it?
Last night, I had to make a decision like that. As I lied in bed, my body was yearning and crying out. But I did it. I DID NOT eat maggie mee at 2am in the morning. In the war against unfit-ness, I managed to win a battle last night and although it is a hard and never-ending war, I must do my best every day to fight.
Okay, seriously. Its annoying how your mind plays tricks on you. There's so much random crap that I bought thinking "if I just had this". Sometimes, I convince myself that its "too precious" and therefore it just sits there. Like my yo-yo balloons which really are precious =(
I am distracted by MH and waiting for my cousin to fetch me for lunch =)
Crap, SB+ prices are up 500gold pp. Ronza, dont do this to us. We NEED SB+
oo, she's here
www.thefreedictionary.com defines "Feel-good" as
Characterized by or designed to encourage a feeling of often superficial happiness or satisfaction
So there you have it.That is the sucky thing about feel good moments. Guilty pleasures. Like eating a bag of potato chips, snacking on a bar of chocolate and washing it down with a bottle of sugary soft drink. Oh. Like eating a stuffed crust pizza.
Yes yes, I know its not only about food.
There's this stupid saying, "How can something that feels so right be so wrong?"
How can something that feels so right be so wrong?
Or, in the words of David Houston & Barbara Mandrell "How can it be wrong when it feels so right?"
Yeaaaah. That is exactly how it goes. Feel-good moments are rooted from lust. It can be the lust for food, a person, a feeling, a material posession...
You think, "I really want this" and your mind and body plays tricks on you, making you believe that. You tell yourself that you are powerless to resist it, its inevitable. It is a deep longing, a sinful desire, a cruel lust. "But how can it be wrong when it feels so right," you tell yourself in an attempt to justify your cravings.Lust convinces you that 'just this once' is enough to satisfy you.
Then there is a moment, that moment when it all just lingers at the tip of your tongue. You are just an inch away from giving in. That moment is the 'make or break' moment. The moment where you make the decision: will you do it?
Last night, I had to make a decision like that. As I lied in bed, my body was yearning and crying out. But I did it. I DID NOT eat maggie mee at 2am in the morning. In the war against unfit-ness, I managed to win a battle last night and although it is a hard and never-ending war, I must do my best every day to fight.
Okay, seriously. Its annoying how your mind plays tricks on you. There's so much random crap that I bought thinking "if I just had this". Sometimes, I convince myself that its "too precious" and therefore it just sits there. Like my yo-yo balloons which really are precious =(
I am distracted by MH and waiting for my cousin to fetch me for lunch =)
Crap, SB+ prices are up 500gold pp. Ronza, dont do this to us. We NEED SB+
oo, she's here
A car that parks itself
Now, most parents go "next time when I'm old..." and follow it up with something they want you to buy, do or somewhere they want to go (with your money).
my mum does that but my dad has never asked for anything. Until today.
We were talking about my Uncle who lives in Perth, Australia.
Emy: He has a car that can park itself
Dad: What do you mean park itself?
Sam: It has sensors so it can park itself la. You dont have to steer the wheel
Emy: Cool right?
Dad: Cool! So cool! Cool, man! Next time buy for me!
Ah, of all the things a parent would ask for, my daddy wants a car that can park itself. LoL.
Wow. I totally did not realize its 1am already. I was thinking of calling Sha and asking her if she wanted to go mamak or something when I glanced at the clock. Wow. Lucky i did or I'd be dead.
my mum does that but my dad has never asked for anything. Until today.
We were talking about my Uncle who lives in Perth, Australia.
Emy: He has a car that can park itself
Dad: What do you mean park itself?
Sam: It has sensors so it can park itself la. You dont have to steer the wheel
Emy: Cool right?
Dad: Cool! So cool! Cool, man! Next time buy for me!
Ah, of all the things a parent would ask for, my daddy wants a car that can park itself. LoL.
Wow. I totally did not realize its 1am already. I was thinking of calling Sha and asking her if she wanted to go mamak or something when I glanced at the clock. Wow. Lucky i did or I'd be dead.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
You still make me go crazy
Yesterday, after a reallllllly long time, I dressed up. I am completely guilty of not doing my laundry for a realllly long time and when I was getting ready to go out, I realized I didnt have anything to wear =\ So I thought, "hey, I'll just wear this pretty top I bought like 6 months ago and never wore!"
So I paired them off with my skinny jeans, my favorite pendant, beautiful Charles and Keith boots and subtle but blue eyes
When I got into the car, I was stared at and Ridz went, "what?"
Dropped by Taylor's AGAIN where I was made aware of yet ANOTHER choice. Seriously. Who goes college hunting FOUR times in their lives FOR THEMSELVES?!
So I spent the rest of the car ride grumbling that I'm an impatient person and here was this woman telling me to wait TWO frigging months for answers that might or might not come. Bah.
But she was really helpful and I'm glad I talked to her.
More on that when meet ups finally happen.
Waiting for Colin to pick me up for lunch.
So we went to 1U where I dragged him into one random shop after the other.
Poor feet. I need to wear my boots more often =\
Dinner at Delicious. Gosh. The Chili Con Carne Cheese Fries are delicioussssssssssssssssssss. During the girls outing, my corner of the table got like 1 forkful because it was that good that out of TWO dishes of it, thats how much we got. The desert, which was the real reason I wanted to go there, was disappointing. We ordered Black Forest in a Cup but it wasnt as good as the other time. The chocolate was of a lesser quality and so it just kinda sucked.
After that we were too full to go to Chocolate for fondue.
Some people have asked if Ridz and I are dating and the answer is no. LoL. History though we may have, we're not that idiotic to fall into a relationship given circumstances. But sitting there, near the entrance of Delicious, watching the people walk past, I had an epiphany.
Sam: If someone we know sees us, they're gonna think we're on a frigging date.
Ridz: Why?
Sam: Cuz I dressed up
Ridz: But I'm wearing flipflops
Sam: You're a guy.
One thing I LOVE about Delicious is the comfy cushion chairs. Ahhh. So soft. And their deco is soooo pretty!
Haha. But it was a really great day out despite my aching, unexperienced feet. It's always fun catching up and just talking about all the random stuff in the world, just unwind from the stress of the world. And gosh, have I been stressed.
And once I get a car (and my license, heh) I promise to definately meet up with all you other guys that i've been neglecting!
AH GTG
So I paired them off with my skinny jeans, my favorite pendant, beautiful Charles and Keith boots and subtle but blue eyes
When I got into the car, I was stared at and Ridz went, "what?"
Dropped by Taylor's AGAIN where I was made aware of yet ANOTHER choice. Seriously. Who goes college hunting FOUR times in their lives FOR THEMSELVES?!
So I spent the rest of the car ride grumbling that I'm an impatient person and here was this woman telling me to wait TWO frigging months for answers that might or might not come. Bah.
But she was really helpful and I'm glad I talked to her.
More on that when meet ups finally happen.
Waiting for Colin to pick me up for lunch.
So we went to 1U where I dragged him into one random shop after the other.
Poor feet. I need to wear my boots more often =\
Dinner at Delicious. Gosh. The Chili Con Carne Cheese Fries are delicioussssssssssssssssssss. During the girls outing, my corner of the table got like 1 forkful because it was that good that out of TWO dishes of it, thats how much we got. The desert, which was the real reason I wanted to go there, was disappointing. We ordered Black Forest in a Cup but it wasnt as good as the other time. The chocolate was of a lesser quality and so it just kinda sucked.
After that we were too full to go to Chocolate for fondue.
Some people have asked if Ridz and I are dating and the answer is no. LoL. History though we may have, we're not that idiotic to fall into a relationship given circumstances. But sitting there, near the entrance of Delicious, watching the people walk past, I had an epiphany.
Sam: If someone we know sees us, they're gonna think we're on a frigging date.
Ridz: Why?
Sam: Cuz I dressed up
Ridz: But I'm wearing flipflops
Sam: You're a guy.
One thing I LOVE about Delicious is the comfy cushion chairs. Ahhh. So soft. And their deco is soooo pretty!
Haha. But it was a really great day out despite my aching, unexperienced feet. It's always fun catching up and just talking about all the random stuff in the world, just unwind from the stress of the world. And gosh, have I been stressed.
And once I get a car (and my license, heh) I promise to definately meet up with all you other guys that i've been neglecting!
AH GTG
Monday, January 10, 2011
The end of life as we know it...
I used this line on a guy last night and when I got home and googled it, I discovered its from "PS I Love You". How appropriate.
Today, after church, after the VBS lunch, I sat around with some of the youth and we talked about random crap. From colleges to boys and relationships to personal issues.
I'm getting college advice from teens 3 years younger than me. LoL.
Here's something Yoke Pei, Joyce, Grace and I talked about.
I used the words "fall in love" at which I was quickly corrected. It wasnt supposed to be falling in love, its supposed to be 'growing with love' and i REALLY like the sound of that. Growing with love.
Its not supposed to be crushes and infatuation.
Its supposed to be mutual respect, understanding, trust and friendship.
When I get a boyfriend, I dont want some honeymoon period. Thinking about it, thats for people who fall in love. But when you have a relationship that grows naturally, at a slow pace where you get to see each other as they really are, now that would be great.
Audrey tells me, "My friends think I'm being unreasonable and that my criteria for my 'ideal' guy is too high. They say I'm too picky"
But then she tells me, dont we deserve our ideal guy?
No, not the guy who speaks 5 languages, plays 7 instruments and serenades us in spanish. *swoons*
No, the top scholar, most popular guy in school and the captain of the ____ teams.
I gave up on the "my ideal guy" list a long time ago. I thought it was dumb. But when I thought of it Audrey's way, it made sense.
We're talking about the guy I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Not only that, he's going to be the father of my future children. And that man described in my criteria also makes the man that my children will call Daddy.
Not being willing to compromise doesnt mean I am stubborn or wishful.
Like I dont want a guy who needs tv and is addicted to computer games. I hope for a guy who reads books and novels. I'd like a guy who thinks National Geographic is good tv. And this affects the upbringing of my children.
Imagine me, trying to teach my son to read when his dad is shooting down zombies on the computer in the next room with the speakers on full blast. Yeaaaa.
So yeah, in this aspect, maybe I'm thinking too far. But maybe that's it when it comes to BGR. We dont think far enough.
So you like each other. Are you actually prepared for a relationship? Because if you REALLY truly love that person, you wouldnt get into a relationship just based on feelings. Would you really want to end up hurting the girl/guy you claim to be in love with?
I admit, I thinly veiled threats to my close guy friends when they start ignoring me when I talk about how they should treat girls they like. I bring them back about 6 months to a year ago and ask them, "do you actually want to risk hurting this girl you claim to really like and risk her feeling how I felt/am feeling?"
Threats as it may be, its true.
BGR isnt just about your mutual feelings and "seeing how things turn out". Caring about someone is thinking things through and being able to say things like "we're not ready to be in a relationship" "if we pursue this relationship now, one of us will only end up getting hurt"
You wanna see how things turn out, then stop. Dont. If love is true, if its meant to be~
it's a quarter to three, I sure aint drunk but I need to sleep~
Today, after church, after the VBS lunch, I sat around with some of the youth and we talked about random crap. From colleges to boys and relationships to personal issues.
I'm getting college advice from teens 3 years younger than me. LoL.
Here's something Yoke Pei, Joyce, Grace and I talked about.
I used the words "fall in love" at which I was quickly corrected. It wasnt supposed to be falling in love, its supposed to be 'growing with love' and i REALLY like the sound of that. Growing with love.
Its not supposed to be crushes and infatuation.
Its supposed to be mutual respect, understanding, trust and friendship.
When I get a boyfriend, I dont want some honeymoon period. Thinking about it, thats for people who fall in love. But when you have a relationship that grows naturally, at a slow pace where you get to see each other as they really are, now that would be great.
Audrey tells me, "My friends think I'm being unreasonable and that my criteria for my 'ideal' guy is too high. They say I'm too picky"
But then she tells me, dont we deserve our ideal guy?
No, not the guy who speaks 5 languages, plays 7 instruments and serenades us in spanish. *swoons*
No, the top scholar, most popular guy in school and the captain of the ____ teams.
I gave up on the "my ideal guy" list a long time ago. I thought it was dumb. But when I thought of it Audrey's way, it made sense.
We're talking about the guy I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Not only that, he's going to be the father of my future children. And that man described in my criteria also makes the man that my children will call Daddy.
Not being willing to compromise doesnt mean I am stubborn or wishful.
Like I dont want a guy who needs tv and is addicted to computer games. I hope for a guy who reads books and novels. I'd like a guy who thinks National Geographic is good tv. And this affects the upbringing of my children.
Imagine me, trying to teach my son to read when his dad is shooting down zombies on the computer in the next room with the speakers on full blast. Yeaaaa.
So yeah, in this aspect, maybe I'm thinking too far. But maybe that's it when it comes to BGR. We dont think far enough.
So you like each other. Are you actually prepared for a relationship? Because if you REALLY truly love that person, you wouldnt get into a relationship just based on feelings. Would you really want to end up hurting the girl/guy you claim to be in love with?
I admit, I thinly veiled threats to my close guy friends when they start ignoring me when I talk about how they should treat girls they like. I bring them back about 6 months to a year ago and ask them, "do you actually want to risk hurting this girl you claim to really like and risk her feeling how I felt/am feeling?"
Threats as it may be, its true.
BGR isnt just about your mutual feelings and "seeing how things turn out". Caring about someone is thinking things through and being able to say things like "we're not ready to be in a relationship" "if we pursue this relationship now, one of us will only end up getting hurt"
You wanna see how things turn out, then stop. Dont. If love is true, if its meant to be~
it's a quarter to three, I sure aint drunk but I need to sleep~
Saturday, January 8, 2011
My head is bursting!
So today when I opened my eyes and stared at my watch, I mentally planned my day. I knew that if I wanted to head to KL tomorrow, it'd be too rushed and I'd end up not going. And anyone who isnt a convention virgin knows that for some reason, the last day of a convention is ALWAYS the most packed.
I was half heartedly convincing myself that I could sleep for another half an hour AT LEAST then a thought struck me. Heck. If I wanted ANY petite chocolate, I had to get up immediately. Sigh.
Forced myself out of bed, got ready in 15 minutes.
Then I discovered my dad went out for bak kut teh... =_=
I toyed with the idea of taking his car but know I'd be gone the whole afternoon, I did not like the lecture I'd receive if I did.
Luckily, my grandpa was around so I asked him to fetch me instead.
And get this. I got to the station and just as I walked up the steps, the train pulled into the station. The train was 10 minutes earlier than I had expected it. OMGOSHHHHH!
This is the THIRD TIME this week I'm taking a train from Klang and today was the THIRS TIME this week that i MISSED THE TRAINNNNN
SERIOUSLY??!
Fine. Nevermind. At least after the first time, I was prepared and brought not just one but TWO books.
Dumb trains =_=
Nerded till KL Central.
Ah... Audrey Niffenegger's new book is delicious. Unlike the mainstream, typical books, her plots are intricate and so very- fragile, is the word I would use. The words, the metaphors, and simply the way she laces the words together to form such intricate patterns is simply divine. Unexpected. Seriously unpredictable, even the things which I suspected of the plot are unfolded with such beauty and skill that it leaves me in awe.
Ok. As I do when I am reading/have read a book, I sound like a total bookworm. I shall cease to bore you. But it really is a beautiful book. Feel free to borrow it from me once I am done unless you're one of those people who take 6 months to finish a book, if so, go get your own. haha
So after my rude awakening from the world of Niffengger, I stepped out of the station and went ._.
I had forgotten how to get to the LRT station.
The feeling of today was oddly calming and thrilling at the same time. I have either holing up in my room in solitude with hours of screen time or out with friends for hours on an end. When was the last time I went out for a day- by myself?
I couldnt think of a day. When? Singapore? That was a long time ago.
So after going up two floors, I realized that the LRT station is right next to the KTM one. D'oh. Need to start paying attention!!
Basically, it was a fun day. Went to the convention and asked a lot of questions. Liberated 4 mini bottles of water from INTI. Talked to a bored Economics Lecturer from HICT Klang who started teaching 7 months ago. She was really nice. Resisted flirting with cute guys working there. Kept needing to go back to the Taylor's guy to ask him stuff. 3 times... =_= He must have thought I had a crush on him. LoL.
Rushed from the convention to Pavillion~ That is my NEW FAVORITE MALL IN KL! Went to The Loaf and got a bunch of pastries~ Love~ I shall snack while reading my book later.
Had Marutama Ramen~~
Then went back to KLCC.
The thing about me is that I really like to be on schedule. I plan my timings and get a bit edgy when I go off schedule. I reached the KLCC LRT station at 4:05 because i decided to stop for juice.
I suck at getting ready on time when people are fetching me but when it comes to me picking people up, I try to be as on time as possible. LoL. So do me a favor, people. When I'm picking you up, be on time~
This post is full of random stuff. not random. it is specific but not very direct. or is it? hmm.
Hey those ppl whom I have not talked to in a while, we need to catch up, fo shizzle!
I was half heartedly convincing myself that I could sleep for another half an hour AT LEAST then a thought struck me. Heck. If I wanted ANY petite chocolate, I had to get up immediately. Sigh.
Forced myself out of bed, got ready in 15 minutes.
Then I discovered my dad went out for bak kut teh... =_=
I toyed with the idea of taking his car but know I'd be gone the whole afternoon, I did not like the lecture I'd receive if I did.
Luckily, my grandpa was around so I asked him to fetch me instead.
And get this. I got to the station and just as I walked up the steps, the train pulled into the station. The train was 10 minutes earlier than I had expected it. OMGOSHHHHH!
This is the THIRD TIME this week I'm taking a train from Klang and today was the THIRS TIME this week that i MISSED THE TRAINNNNN
SERIOUSLY??!
Fine. Nevermind. At least after the first time, I was prepared and brought not just one but TWO books.
Dumb trains =_=
Nerded till KL Central.
Ok. As I do when I am reading/have read a book, I sound like a total bookworm. I shall cease to bore you. But it really is a beautiful book. Feel free to borrow it from me once I am done unless you're one of those people who take 6 months to finish a book, if so, go get your own. haha
So after my rude awakening from the world of Niffengger, I stepped out of the station and went ._.
I had forgotten how to get to the LRT station.
The feeling of today was oddly calming and thrilling at the same time. I have either holing up in my room in solitude with hours of screen time or out with friends for hours on an end. When was the last time I went out for a day- by myself?
I couldnt think of a day. When? Singapore? That was a long time ago.
So after going up two floors, I realized that the LRT station is right next to the KTM one. D'oh. Need to start paying attention!!
Basically, it was a fun day. Went to the convention and asked a lot of questions. Liberated 4 mini bottles of water from INTI. Talked to a bored Economics Lecturer from HICT Klang who started teaching 7 months ago. She was really nice. Resisted flirting with cute guys working there. Kept needing to go back to the Taylor's guy to ask him stuff. 3 times... =_= He must have thought I had a crush on him. LoL.
Rushed from the convention to Pavillion~ That is my NEW FAVORITE MALL IN KL! Went to The Loaf and got a bunch of pastries~ Love~ I shall snack while reading my book later.
Had Marutama Ramen~~
Then went back to KLCC.
The thing about me is that I really like to be on schedule. I plan my timings and get a bit edgy when I go off schedule. I reached the KLCC LRT station at 4:05 because i decided to stop for juice.
I suck at getting ready on time when people are fetching me but when it comes to me picking people up, I try to be as on time as possible. LoL. So do me a favor, people. When I'm picking you up, be on time~
This post is full of random stuff. not random. it is specific but not very direct. or is it? hmm.
Hey those ppl whom I have not talked to in a while, we need to catch up, fo shizzle!
Thursday, January 6, 2011
When life gives you lemons~
You dont just make lemonade. You then get some kids to sell it in a little lemonade stand, use profits to buy more lemons.
Repeat till desired result obtained.
Question:
Why would life give you lemons? Has life EVER given anyone lemons?
I remember once there was this poster for some international singer who was coming to Malaysia and it said "LIVE!" Alan and I were in the car when we saw that and he went, "Live?" Thing is, he pronounced it not as the "live" as in in real time but "live" as in to be alive. Haha. Then we argued for like 10 minutes about it till he went, "Oh ya hor."
So my emo day is over. I'm so hungry. Had a piece of good news today which put a spark back into my step. I'm glad.
Repeat till desired result obtained.
Question:
Why would life give you lemons? Has life EVER given anyone lemons?
I remember once there was this poster for some international singer who was coming to Malaysia and it said "LIVE!" Alan and I were in the car when we saw that and he went, "Live?" Thing is, he pronounced it not as the "live" as in in real time but "live" as in to be alive. Haha. Then we argued for like 10 minutes about it till he went, "Oh ya hor."
So my emo day is over. I'm so hungry. Had a piece of good news today which put a spark back into my step. I'm glad.
How blog posts start...
Sometimes, when someone loves something reallllllly much, the blogpost stork picks a reallly special blogpost and delivers it to that person~
Ok, random shit.
Few days ago, I got to hang out with two people I havent seen in agesssssss! I met Audrey at Empire for our annual reunion. Seriously, we see each other ONCE A YEAR. Maybe this year, it'll be more than that. We spent the WHOLE afternoon talking. it was about- 5 hours? Glad I had a bottle of water this time =p
But it was really nice talking to her.
Audrey: So how are you?
Sam: Mmm. I'm fine.
Audrey: Really? I came back all the way from Australia and ask how you're doing and you give me two words?
Sam: Okay lah!
Audrey: Ok, that's four. Gee.
Haha. Gosh, I have missed her so much. She's one of those people who has really been there for me all these years. But once we hit college, schedules get busier and busier. As a result, we actually havent really exchanged emails for the longest time. But every time we meet up its like barely any time passed at all.
Talking to Aisha on Facebook. She's really funny. not in the "you're a freak of nature" kinda way. Its in the "you're hilarious" way.
But yea, I have a bunch of awesome friends.
Oh, blog title. Lately, I go to post something on Facebook, realize that I have more to say than can be compressed in 420 characters then come here.
This is my latest status update
Some people seem to think that friends are only for good times, hanging out and someone to eat with at lunchtime in college. Hey, friends are for the times when you feel like shit, when you've been kicked down and you wonder if you have the strength to get up. Friends make you smile even as you're crying tears from your heart and when they give you a hug, it just makes everything feel like its going to be okay.
Okay, I just tugged my own heartstrings reading that. But really. Friends are not for good times OR bad. They're for both.
As much as I like having someone to be there for me when I'm down, I was actually kinda sad that I couldn't share my happiness with one of my friends.
Meeting up with Audrey, I felt really happy that I could tell her all the great blessings in my life lately and as nice as it is to tell her, its just as heartwarming to see how happy she is for me.
So yesterday, I was emo-ing the whole afternoon and evening. My friend came to spend some time with me and we played like 10 rounds of Monopoly Deal. I won most of the time and even when I lost, I was accused of going soft on purpose. LoL?
But because I am human, because I am made of flesh and bone, I will sometimes feel completely alone. Just about everyone does, no?
The days when you look at your phone, ever silent.
You pick it up but realize you dont really have anyone you want to call.
Even if you find someone to call, that person doesnt pick up.
Then you go online or something.
But its the same thing.
Maybe you open a chat window but your fingers hover above the keyboard.
You dont know what to say.
So you close it.
When you're around people, you smile but it just feels like you're stretching your lips into a distorted expression.
Then when we can, we just retreat back into our world of solitude because we just feel hollow, trying to be happy.
But the thing is, often, we feel this way because we let ourselves. We feel alone because we close ourselves up and dont respond to any warmth someone extends to us.
So hey, people, dont feel sorry for yourselves. You may make excuses like "no one understands" "they're all just too busy" "i dont know how to voice it out"
but there's always someone waiting to be there for you. =)
Ok, random shit.
Few days ago, I got to hang out with two people I havent seen in agesssssss! I met Audrey at Empire for our annual reunion. Seriously, we see each other ONCE A YEAR. Maybe this year, it'll be more than that. We spent the WHOLE afternoon talking. it was about- 5 hours? Glad I had a bottle of water this time =p
But it was really nice talking to her.
Audrey: So how are you?
Sam: Mmm. I'm fine.
Audrey: Really? I came back all the way from Australia and ask how you're doing and you give me two words?
Sam: Okay lah!
Audrey: Ok, that's four. Gee.
Haha. Gosh, I have missed her so much. She's one of those people who has really been there for me all these years. But once we hit college, schedules get busier and busier. As a result, we actually havent really exchanged emails for the longest time. But every time we meet up its like barely any time passed at all.
Talking to Aisha on Facebook. She's really funny. not in the "you're a freak of nature" kinda way. Its in the "you're hilarious" way.
But yea, I have a bunch of awesome friends.
Oh, blog title. Lately, I go to post something on Facebook, realize that I have more to say than can be compressed in 420 characters then come here.
This is my latest status update
Some people seem to think that friends are only for good times, hanging out and someone to eat with at lunchtime in college. Hey, friends are for the times when you feel like shit, when you've been kicked down and you wonder if you have the strength to get up. Friends make you smile even as you're crying tears from your heart and when they give you a hug, it just makes everything feel like its going to be okay.
Okay, I just tugged my own heartstrings reading that. But really. Friends are not for good times OR bad. They're for both.
As much as I like having someone to be there for me when I'm down, I was actually kinda sad that I couldn't share my happiness with one of my friends.
Meeting up with Audrey, I felt really happy that I could tell her all the great blessings in my life lately and as nice as it is to tell her, its just as heartwarming to see how happy she is for me.
So yesterday, I was emo-ing the whole afternoon and evening. My friend came to spend some time with me and we played like 10 rounds of Monopoly Deal. I won most of the time and even when I lost, I was accused of going soft on purpose. LoL?
But because I am human, because I am made of flesh and bone, I will sometimes feel completely alone. Just about everyone does, no?
The days when you look at your phone, ever silent.
You pick it up but realize you dont really have anyone you want to call.
Even if you find someone to call, that person doesnt pick up.
Then you go online or something.
But its the same thing.
Maybe you open a chat window but your fingers hover above the keyboard.
You dont know what to say.
So you close it.
When you're around people, you smile but it just feels like you're stretching your lips into a distorted expression.
Then when we can, we just retreat back into our world of solitude because we just feel hollow, trying to be happy.
But the thing is, often, we feel this way because we let ourselves. We feel alone because we close ourselves up and dont respond to any warmth someone extends to us.
So hey, people, dont feel sorry for yourselves. You may make excuses like "no one understands" "they're all just too busy" "i dont know how to voice it out"
but there's always someone waiting to be there for you. =)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
When life kicks you down...
Its really hard not to let that misery seep into other areas of your life.
Failing in one thing one area, can cause bitterness between anything else in your life that isn't peachy. And because you have that bitterness, it helps sabotage the things that aren't peachy.
Like in movies, books and real life, someone acts like a total douche then someone close to them goes, "there's something bothering him/her."
Unless that person is always a douche, then everyone just rolls their eyes.
Life is just one whole roller coaster. Its never meant to be easy. If it was easy, everyone would be made exactly the same, be able to read other people's minds and have flying carpets that don't pollute the environment.
People like to say, "Follow your heart." That is actually lousy advice. It is one of the lousiest pieces of advice in the world. Even "burn that m***af****r" is sometimes even better advice.
Wisdom. Now that's a good idea. It should be "Pursue and follow wisdom" because with wisdom, at least when things burn into a fiery wreck (whether or not someone was instructed to "burn that m***af****r"), you have some semblance of peace because you know that you did the best you could in making that decision.
Hearts cause a crap load of trouble.
Failing in one thing one area, can cause bitterness between anything else in your life that isn't peachy. And because you have that bitterness, it helps sabotage the things that aren't peachy.
Like in movies, books and real life, someone acts like a total douche then someone close to them goes, "there's something bothering him/her."
Unless that person is always a douche, then everyone just rolls their eyes.
Life is just one whole roller coaster. Its never meant to be easy. If it was easy, everyone would be made exactly the same, be able to read other people's minds and have flying carpets that don't pollute the environment.
People like to say, "Follow your heart." That is actually lousy advice. It is one of the lousiest pieces of advice in the world. Even "burn that m***af****r" is sometimes even better advice.
Wisdom. Now that's a good idea. It should be "Pursue and follow wisdom" because with wisdom, at least when things burn into a fiery wreck (whether or not someone was instructed to "burn that m***af****r"), you have some semblance of peace because you know that you did the best you could in making that decision.
Hearts cause a crap load of trouble.
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